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Author: Blaine (---.ph.ph.cox.net)
Date: 04-03-06 12:32
I was with her this morning on Yahoo Messenger. She forgot that she told me she lived in a particular city,and this morning told me she was in another!!! I was not always knowledgeable about the deceit--or even how to use a computer. I bought my first computer in 1999,although I had used other computers. I fell for, and gave 1000 dollars to Yana Volkova. It was Christmas too,and I was strained financially. She missed her airplane flight--on purpose I am certain!! She is a famous scammer who is listed in almost all of the blacklists. A pity that I did not know this sooner. I actually sold my beautiful 44 magnum handgun to send her money!! I really am not embarassed any more to tell this story,because it was a good life lesson for me. The lesson being : when things seem too good to be true-they are probably too good to be true. My pain was worse than losing the money. This is what so may women do not understand---the money is secondary to the emotional pain a man goes through if he is sincere,as I am. I met another woman from Kremenchug in 2002. She was very personable,answered all my questions and seemed very real--again,too good to be true. I often wondered why we had no differences of opinion in the 200 letters we exchanged. Her last letter to me was good--full of affection and news from Ukraine. Then,she just disappeared!! I was hurt badly again. About this time,I met another woman from Kirovograd,and we spoke much on the telephone. I practiced my russian words with her. She also disappeared. When I finally became in contact with her-she was living near New York City,married to a man who beats her,and we resumed our conversations. I was very upset that she met a man at the Borispol? airport in Kiev,who secured for her the B-2 visa. She flew to the US,and married him. We spoke until just last year. Her husband actually called me on my telephone,cursing at me and threatening me if I came to New York. It was all too much,and we stopped talking. I did call and talked to her 3 weeks ago,to find that she was granted the "green card",her sister came to New York ( WHite Plains) and was married in Las Vegas. I was upset that she was only 5 hours away from me,but did not contact me. At this point in time ( today) I have lost all trust in her. I should also tell that I have sent perhaps thousands of dollars to women as gifts. I knew that they were probably not serious. The last woman,from Almaty,disappeared also--very mysteriously. I called her home and asked for her,and was told she was with her father in a small town near Almaty. Yes,I know what I am talking about when it concerns women. My last real love was an American woman whom I had been dating in Montana for years.. She persuaded me to leave here and go back to Montana. This was in 1999. I moved from here ( Phoenix,Arizona ) back to Missoula Montana. I asked her to marry me,and as is the American tradition,gave her an engagement ring ( 2 of them !! ) She started acting strange,and mean to me. We were on vacation in Los Altos,California,and when we returned,our flight connection to Montana was in Seattle,Washington state. We were circling in the sky for the approach to our landing,when I found out that she had accepted another marriage proposal from another man. I was devastated !! When we broke up,I had no place to live,no money ( I gave it all to her,her home,and her cats!!) To make things worse,I broke 2 of my ribs at my work,and started drinking alcohol very heavily. I went into a deep and terrible depression which I could not make go away. I got drunk,fell asleep while I was driving,and almost hit a police officer with my truck!! I was arrested,thrown in jail,and convicted of driving while under the influence of drugs and alcohol ( I had taken muscle relaxer pills also! ) I wanted to kill myself,but did not have the strength to do it. I went to a clinical parapsychologist for loss/grief counseling. It really was like my wife had died--but what was even worse was that she was very much alive!!! It was the most difficult time of my life. Nobody would hire me for work,because of my driving record,so I lifted hay bales,and found work as a painter. It was so bad!! I could not drive,I had to pay for alcohol counseling,and for a year I slept inside of a camp trailer that was no bigger than a tent!! I knew people who sold cocaine,and I became addicted to it. All the police in town knew me,and I was always looking over my shoulder,always afraid I would be arrested again! The doctors gave me pills because I could not stop crying--but the pills made me soil myself. The pills ( Zoloft) made my mood better though. I became addicted to these pills too,and could not quit them!! In 2003, I started seein another woman. We would get drunk all day long--and on Sunday morning,we would go to the bars and get hammered! ( drunk) It all became too much! SHe got in trouble for drinking,and was sent to prison for 1 year. I had finally had enough,and moved back to Arizona,where I quit drinking,quit cocaine,quit Zoloft,and quit women!!! After a few months of being here,I was well enough to have a life again,and to rebuild it. I am clean and sober now,and I am living witness to sadness,despair,and pain. I learned much,and I tell the story often to people who think their lives are really bad. So,that is Blaine`s story,thank you for taking the time to read about my last 6 years!!! About drugs and alcohol: there is no substitute for happiness,or living a good life!! ABout relationships: no matter how much you love,it does not mean you are going to be loved in return!! Poka!!!!
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